| | Current Music: | minority - greenday | | Subject: | YAY A PONY! | | Time: | 11:34 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/happy.gif) cheerful |
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|  Dear Santa...
Dear Santa,
This year I've been busy!
Last Monday I ruled Asscrackistan as a kind and benevolent dictator (700 points). Last Thursday I didn't flush (-1 points). In April I donated bone marrow to ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) celine_barbie in a life-saving procedure (300 points). In September I stole booze_whore's purse (-30 points). In July I bought porn for milkthepigs (10 points).
Overall, I've been nice (979 points). For Christmas I deserve a pony!
Sincerely,
tinydancer01 |
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| sometimes i feel like i'm useless, to someone in particular. i feel like i don't mean anything to this person and all my efforts to support this person, stick by them, laugh with them, smile with them, when sometimes i couldn't bare to smile...i feel like that's all ignored.
i really need cameron tomorrow. to just be there for me, like i was there for him last week after physics, when he needed to see me. that time when he had a rough night the night before, he needed me, so i went, missed tafe. i feel like i'm constantly there for him, but when i need it...i just feel un important.
i wanted to see him today for, not even five minutes. after he sooked to me all week, i miss you, i need to see you, i miss you,so i wanted to see him just to give him the thing i made for him...coz he told me he loves that kind of stuff. so i did it for him. i supported him throughout the whole hsc, sometimes when others didn't. i wanted to tell him i was proud of him and i loved him...but his reaction was. i'm busy the guys are coming here. i was fine with that...but he didnt even ask why i wanted to see him, for how long...i wanted 5 minutes...then messages me 10 mins later saying, well i can come but the guys would be there...assuming i would care? i don't care. he acts as if i hate his friends sometimes. and i don't. still didn't ask for how long or why i wanted to see him...sometimes he just doesn't care...or seems like he doesn't...
messaging him today...didn't reply for 30 mins, 20 mins. he just can't juggle me when he's out with his friends. it takes 30 seconds to type a message. tom always seems to message other people when he's out with us...why can't my boyfriend? and i'm not saying i don't appreciate him and i want to change him...i just wish he'd think sometimes...think how he makes me feel.
i need him tomoro, i need him to be there with me so i don't lose it. i need to go see an important friend, and i need him to be there. but he's busy with the guys again. he says well ok, i've organised to go to the city with the guys, i'll meet you then. i felt like he wasn't even listening. i have to go to campbelltown...how long does he think that's going to take. he has to go somewhere else later. then we have to be at fivedock at 7pm. i just wish that my priorities could be put up with his sometimes. he did keep asking what time i could meet him after that, but after the big sigh after i said early 8:30 9am. i just thought. well fuck that. he really doesn't care sometimes.
but no. it's probably just me being stupid again. i'm always wrong. he's finished his hsc. why would he want to go to some boring hospital in campbelltown, be there for his girlfriend. sometimes i don't want a boyfriend. sometimes i just want a friend. someone who will be there for me no matter what. stupid feelings always ruin everything. and not sometimes, but all the time. i just miss ben, coz i know i wouldn't have to ask, he'd just come. but not everyones like that. people are different, which makes them great. i just need someone like that again. and i spose i havn't found it yet.
i feel like such a whiney bitch. i have a great boyfriend. i spose, it just hurts, coz i need him tomoro, he won't respond to my sms, and he won't be there. it's always 'i love you' and that just automatically fixes everything. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | after the fall - cog | | Subject: | *wtf? it's 8:38am!* | | Time: | 08:38 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/okay.gif) apathetic...i feel emo |
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| OK! if there's one thing i wish i would stop doing and that's sleep reading SMS's... it's actually really starting to freak the shit out of me...i got a meassage this morning at 1:12am and another one at 1:20am...and i wake up, look at my phone, no messages...so i think...well why don't i just check my inbox, then there's two messages there from last night/this morning, it ACTUALLY freaks the shit out of me!
i sleep read them and i have NO recolection of doing so when i wake up and it's happened so much...WEIRD!
but yesterday was probably the best day i've had in such a long time...yet a bit of the worst at the same time.
i got up on time, and i felt good, i got to school early...which was weird, i withdrew money for greenday and my dress and some extra money so i could travel and stuff, then went up to school, had a good morning, it was raining and i thought it would be nice to go and sit where we usually do and just read by myself...coz lauren dropped modern history, BEST THING I EVER DID...and i had a spare. yes i'm a loner, but it was really relaxing, plus i now LOVE reading...which is something that i never ever thought would happen. it was just so peaceful looking onto the pretty lawn section when it was raining...i love the rain.
so then we had recess...spent it paying out emo's...which proves to be a great past time.
had art, which is usually great. but no. rob gave us her leaving us presents. and that was really upsetting...and that sounds really lame, oh no a teachers leaving. but she is probably one of the only people in the world who actually doesnt think im a stupid and crazy student and understands all my weird talk and helps me like with everything, she's so awesome...i was so upset that she was leaving, like our class, but i gave up giving her crap after a few minutes and just wished her luck, if she wants to go traveling then that's good. she should do what makes her happy. she made us the cutest little cards with messages for each of us, mine had butterflies on it, i heart butterflies. the little card was packed with writing, it was all squished on one side. made me feel good coz no one else int he class had squished writing. more to the point everyone in my class was more focused on the social thursday night than anything and paying the shit out of everyone, then when i told them it was really mean, laura looked at me, and shes like, lauren no its not.
i just have to say this to someone...or something...i feel like in whinging here. but. the social, i'm so glad i didn't go. it was one big bitch fest, AS I PREDICTED. there is this girl called kerry who is really sweet, but she had a little bit of a problem. like mentally, whatever, she's still really nice. smiling all the time. and the girls in my grade, well the 'popular ones' as they like to think, did awards, which were rigged coz only they got them...but, they gave one to kerry, best web designed. because she likes mice. and she had this website. and i must admit its a little weird. but i dont make fun of it...and they made that award JUST so they could laugh at her...that's why they did it, and i go to them, thats actually really cruel, i got from laura, "lauren..." disaproving look. "it's not, it's best web designer, theres nothing wrong with that" i felt like screaming at her, the only reason you did that WAS TO LAUGH AT HER. you didnt do it coz you wanted to give her an award coz shes nice, or she really is the best web whatever, you did it to purely laugh at her, your a fucking hoe. but no. i was out numbered by the fuckers. so i kept my mouth shut...like usual. i hate my school.
so i shut the fuck up and did my work. and suprised rob completely. like ive promised myself im gonna pretty much shut the fuck up and work...and i did. and im doing fucking awesomely. i was told, 'lauren...that's really good. if you keep that up you'll be blitzing next year' so that made me feel better and took away the need to kill half my grade.
then we had lunch, and i can't really remember what happened. i think it was just me and nicky talking to the year 10's and getting the year 10's to get rid of the year 9's next to them coz they suck...theyre like the biggest bullys of their year...I DONT GET BULLYING. once again i hate my school.
then was maths. which was alright i suppose. i got my camp forms and was late. teacher really didnt give a shit. then, we went to the ILC and did some weird shit ont he computers...spreadsheets to be exact. with all these formulas and what have you. borning...and hard, so me and nicky played this drug dealing game, featuring marilyn manson!...fucking randomest shit...we went back up to our room, sat...talked about sex, and hence coz the teacher was turning red, got an early mark.
not that it mattered much...coz i was on my way to work...and i would be early whether i liked it or not. read more of my book coz im a NERD and i love it. and got to central with like 50 mins to spare! *sigh*
i decided that paddy's markets would be not only funny...but something to do. and i ended up buying the cutest butterfly ring. it was five bucks. im so PRO five dollar rings.
i was working with steven last night, which is good, coz he's becoming a good friend of mine, we get along really well. so i was happy about that. and im always happy when teresas manager, so no problems there. cameron and louise then came and i ran outside to hug them, i havnt seen louise in AGES! and i love her SO SO SO MUCH!! hehehe!! gave cameron a hug...and told me i should be working. so i was like...nice to see you too??
showed them all the weird stuff i had to show them, gave cameron $150. ooo yes among those weird things were the badges rob made us 'I LOVE ART' and "ART GEEK #...whatever', i was number ONE! hehehe!!
then they left, went to get some stuff. then came back and louise told me all about the sexy dress she found in dangerfield. and cameron bought some red leather wrist bands thing. chicken red. but really nice.
so then they met others. then left. cameron didnt come say goodbye after he made a big deal about it the night before. so i was like ok? whatever. dress shop was closed, but i got greenday tickets *YAY* so happy i get to see jimmy eat world!! AHHH!!!
rest of the night was good...OH, teresa says sorry cameron, she didnt mean to not wave to you.
yes anyhoo, night was good with teresa and steven, so funny, we got so bored and me and teresa went a little crazy...then there was no internet so we sat and talked about so much stuff...i feel asleep. she tried not to wake me, but then had to, coz she was handling money in the safe, and i had to stamp or CHOP peoples car parking tickets...yep and it's coming to the end of my night except the most DISTURBING THING OF ALL. tho it was actually so funny.
this oldish couple should REALLY watch where the lift was going. they got on at 5, and then they didnt press the level quick enuf, so it came down to 3 and they thought it was going up to 8, and the doors open and they were making out and at first i was disgusted. then half was int he lift ride. i was trying so hard not to laugh. and i was turned away. except you could so hear that i was starting to laugh. and making my mum too. they got out, the doors closed and i burst out laughing, and my mum just goes, LAUREN! SHHH! and with that lift...you can hear ppl still in the lift, so HA HA...yuck...they're old!~ not the age like 80, when it's cute. but like...40, when it's just plain ew.
i came on the internet for a bit last night, then went to sleep...had a good sleep, but i spent it dreaming about sex. was actually really weird :S
that's a really fat entry...shhmeh! | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| ok i don't know how i'm going to manage to get up tomorrow at 6:30am! i got up at 1:50pm this morning...afternoon, AH...hates school.
so i've decided i'm going to wear my new shoes today! down to buy some school writing books. i really wanna be organised this year, then again...i say that every year. so i'm not supprised if i'm full of shit once again. *hates the fact we're starting year 12*
and even better, i go to camp soon...CAMP. WTF is camp. *argh* camp is in week four...so it's around the end of the month, to the start of the month, which is SUPER gay because i want to see saw 2 on the 31st and it seems i'll be away...ON CAMP! or mayb not, i'll find out when i go back to school i spose. i don't even know if i've handed in the form...i hope not, and i can't even remember.
i'm really loving the cure right now and cameron...butthat's always. and everyone pretty much knows that... so...i spose i didn't really need to type it. anyhoo.
i'm going to go be a school buying nerd, and spend more than $10 in each shop so i can go put more entries in to win my car!!!
'the spider man is having you for dinner tonight' loving the cure... | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | bleed american - jimmy eat world | | Subject: | *five red roses* | | Time: | 10:15 pm | | Current Mood: | *yay grinspoon tickets* |
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| OMIGOD! cameron IS the cutest. it's our five months today...well really six, that's what you get for breaking up. hehehe. ANYWAY, he bought me five red roses when we got into the city today, and it was so sweet, coz he was like WAIT HERE and i was like HUH?? why?? and he's like NO WAIT HERE. then comes back with five red roses and i was like AW AW AW! i love you so much xoxo!
so then we walked around and aroud and i felt horrible about myself coz every size eight dress i tried on was too small, and i'm normally a size eight, it made me feel a lot better that the only part that wasn't fitting inside the dress was my boobies, but still. i got into a 'i feel fat' mood. and just when me and cameron thought we'd been into like EVERY dress shop around the city, we saw this one store, in this section we had never gone into, it's like a little bit off Pitt St. and we were like OMIGOD, new shops, more dress opportunities, so we went into about the 3rd store...looking around, not really seeing anything...then we saw this one rack, and that's where we found the $339 dress i now have on lay-by!!!
Cameron payed $100 to put it on lay-by!! i love my closet cutie!!!
But tomorrow i'm buying Grinspoon Tickets for us!
*Grinspoon
*Spiderbait
*Butterfingers
*Dirty Little Secret
ALL on the same night for $50! i'm in heaven!
i feel bad so as soon as i get the munies i wanna pay back cam, sweetie your spending too much on me!!
but i love you, i appreciate everything, i love you so much!
tomorrow i'm going into the city to see jayde who i havn't seen all holidays coz she's in V >.< V CHINA
i want shoesies!!! hehehe!!!
on a final note, i love you so much cam baby. happy five months!! xoxo!! love you hun! | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| omigod...busy weekend, well busy for lauren, and not really the weekend, but the past couple of days...
wednesday, caught the bus to meet cameron, don't really remember much of what happened, then bused it to my baby's house. :)
played music, hung out with my baby...then tom walked in on what COULD have been a very aquard moment, but we notcied him quickly, so it was allll good :) his response being... "cam dude you really shouldn't leave your front door wide open"
so then we ALL got pretty dressed up, Tom as Neo from the Matrix
and cam and me as AWESOME Punks, hehehe punk couple.
{pretty hair}
{eskimo kissies...awesome punk couple}
post more later = bored | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| so suprisingly i'm awake! and it's 9am...!
i went to bed so early last night, i was very proud, however...cameron
decided to wake me up at midnight...didn't bother me i went straight
back to sleep...
anyhoo, so i have to work this morning, and i only hope that georgia isn't manager today, ARGH!...drama's at reading...
so yesterday i went to newtown, and the original plan was to go to
under the blue moon with rachelle.BUT. being the kegworth girls that we
are...or my lack of information as to where this place was, we didn't
find it for a while...
so, we just walked through newtown...which was good!...contemplating
getting her lip pierced, and my ears pierced a few more
times...:)...none of which happened!!
we ate the yummiest ice-cream tho, and i saw, cutie charlotte and claire from school...
then i saw 'cammy'...hehehe i think i just got introuble. which made my
day!...i ran up to her and jumped on her and she was like LAUREN! i
can't believe your here, i told you to come and you did! and it was all
very joyus :)
so when me and rachelle finally found this place that this thing was,
we decided we weren't goth enough to go inside, plus we were tired. so
we just went home. it was SO cold. and smartness us didn't bring any
jumpers...sitting at newtown station in singlet tops and
t-shirts...SMART...
so since friday i've been working on this awesome art work, it was this
fairie with broken wings, i did this stuff to it on photoshop, then was
doing this thing we learnt from miss rob in art class, but ARGH, i
stuffed up and i was so pissed coz i put so much work into it, and it
wasn't even for anything, just because i'm a random art nerd, and it's
not like i have anything better to do...
so now i'm trying to do it again, but i don't think it will work
because i'm not using watercolour paper...so i should probably save
myself the anger...and just wait till i have watercolour paper...
ARGH! my moods have vairied so much recently...it just pisses me off,
people who are so like...argh what's the word or words... can't give a
straight answer, don't put in effort for those they really should...and
friends who constantly ditch you...
i've been listening to this song a bit...and i dunno, it's doing something to my mood, suprisingly helping it i think...
which is kinda weird...but there are some lyrics in there which are helping...
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Beaten why for
Can't take much more
Here we go...Here we go...Here we go
One - Nothing wrong with me
Two - Nothing wrong with me
Three - Nothing wrong with me
Four - Nothing wrong with me
One - Something's got to give
Two - Something's got to give
Three - Something's got to give
Now
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Push me again
This is the end
Here we go...Here we go...Here we go
One - Nothing wrong with me
Two - Nothing wrong with me
Three - Nothing wrong with me
Four - Nothing wrong with me
One - Something's got to give
Two - Something's got to give
Three - Something's got to give
Now
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Skin against skin blood and bone
You're all by yourself but you're not alone
You wanted in now you're here
Driven by hate consumed by fear
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
One - Nothing wrong with me
Two - Nothing wrong with me
Three - Nothing wrong with me
Four - Nothing wrong with me
One - Something's got to give
Two - Something's got to give
Three - Something's got to give
Now
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
hmm...good song anyway...
work isn't going to improve my mood, so it's good that this does...
holidays also has improved it, so *snaps* for lauren!
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| follows trend...!
To play I never, Put an (x) in front of the things that you have done at least once. And a (_) on the things that you have NEVER done. When your done, add an "I'VE NEVER" of your own and pass it on.
(x) been drunk
(x) smoked pot
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
(_) crashed a friend's car
(_) been to japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been in love
(_) had sex in public
(_) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
(_) been fired
(_) been in a fist fight
(x) had a threesome (not sexing, kissing and touching and what have you)
(_) snuck out of your parent's house
(_) been caught masturbating
(_) peed on myself
(_) had sex with a member of the same sex
(_) been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
(x) stole something from my job
(_) celebrated new years in time square
(x) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(_) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
(_) been to europe
(x) skipped school
(_) slept with a co-worker
(_) had sex at the office
(_) had sex in a car
(_) been married
(_) gotten divorced
(_) had children
(x) lash out irrationally
(_) went to the movies just to make out in the backrow
(_) Had sex with a stripper.
(x) stayed on the phone all night
(_) pulled an all-nighter 2 nights in a row
(x) Called someone a racial term
(_) Gave a lapdance
(_) Smoked crack
(x) watched a porn
(_) Hooked up with a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend
(x) Went to work still drunk from the night before
(_) Made a "home video"
(_) had a bat mitzvah
(x) been high on life
(x) peed in the pool
(x) taken nude pics of myself
(_) Been swordfighting with real swords
(_) danced on the bar
(_) had a one night stand
(_) thrown up after sex
(x) been caught by partners dad
(x) slept naked
(x) gotten lost in your city
(x) saw a shooting star
(_) been to any other countries besides yours
(_) had a serious surgery
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas
(x) kissed a stranger
(x) hugged a stranger
(x) done drugs
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
(x) made out in an elevator
(x) swore at your parents
(x) kicked a guy where it hurts.
(x) been to a casino
(_) been skydiving
(_) broken a bone
(x) been high
(x) skinny-dipped
(x) flashed someone
(x) saw a therapist
(x) played spin the bottle
(_) gotten stitches
(_) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone
(_) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
(_) crashed into a friend's car
(_) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
(_) Been to Africa
(x) Driven over 400 miles in one day
(_) Been to Canada
(_) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(_) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
(_) Thrown up in a bar
(x) Eaten Sushi
(_) Been snowboarding
(x) Been Skiing
(x) Met someone in person from the internet
(x) Been to a moto cross show
(x) lost a child
(_) gone to college
(_) graduated college
(x) done hard drugs
(x) taken painkillers
(x) had someone cheat on you
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) had a crush on someone you shouldn't
(x) fucked up school cause of a problem with weed?
(x) own an ipod
(x) own an mp3 player
(x) fancy someone on your friend list
(x) been on a rollercoaster
(x) rode a horse
(x) cheated on someone (REGRETS)
(_) made out with someone in the back of a taxi
(x) broken something in a fit of rage
(_) gone bungee-cording
(x) Gotten sick from drinking
(x) Given oral sex
(x) Locked yourself in your room to cry
each day...i realise how lucky i am to have my cameron. i don't think i could ask for anyone better to be mine...
i'm so in love...and i want and need you always hunny :) lots of smiles. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| 31st of August. possibly, like the 16th of January...a date i'll remember forever.
31st of August. my beautiful baby turns 17 this year...i wish you were here. i keep missing you everyday.
16th of January, the day they took you away from me. i sit and i wonder everyday, why things had to turn out like they did...why things happen, why people die...i don't have an answer for it, and i'm not sure i want one. but i do want you back...here. with me.
now i'm sitting here, with 'here without you - three doors down' on repeat...and somehow, every single lyric in this song...seems to be relevant
A hundred days had made me older
since the last time that I've saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me
The miles just keep rollin
as the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
but I hope that it gets better as we go
I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
Everything I know,
and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls,
when it’s all said and done
it get hard but it won’t take away my love
I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
for some reason, the hurt wont go away...the pain...when you left me, wont go away. you are so dearly missed by so many benji. i don't know who i would be if i hadn't met you. and im greatful and it makes me that little bit happier to have met you at all...you were like a drug...meet you once, hooked for life.
you ARE this amazing person, and my love grows so much stronger everyday...i love you so much. and i always will...you were my first love...you never forget your first love and i know i'll never forget you...never replace you. you'll always be my benji and they'll always be this special place for you in my heart. i love you so much.
got the most beautiful photo of me and ben today. gail gave it to me, chris took it...thankyou so much to the both of you. it means so much to me.
missing you benji. i love you. your memory will live on, in all of us, forever. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| ok. so i had to work tonight. which was SUCKY! but, it's not like i had anything better to do!
so friday, had exam day off *yay* so kat, rach and i went shopping! was AWESOME!!
we found one of rach's old school friends and she hung out with us and it was awesome and she knows toni and jo!!! hehehe!! yay bradfield!!
Kat bought awesome shorts, don't ask amanda... and something else which i totally don't remember.
Rach bought sexy shorts, which i helped her find hehehe. SEX-AY shoes. which look awesome on her. the HOTTEST roxy bag, some shirts and some randoms stuffs...
and I bought an awesome sexy top! this lil pull over black top with pink sparklies things on it.lol. i bought my baby some chocolates coz he said he had a present for me!! O.M.G i'll get to that story in a second! AND. the cutest peter alexander puppy slippers hehehe!! sooo in love.
so in myer i called my lovely cameron, after signing up for a myer card and a fly buys card, wow i feel special. and us three girlies met up with cameron just for a min so i could say hi...hehehe!! *loves cameron*
and OMG me and rach bought matching pink and blue pony keyrings. rach's is pink and mine is blue!
so then after going through pitt street, QVB kat and i departed from rach, who had to go do bank things...and we caught the bus home! VEWY EXCITING .lol.
anyhoo! so Lauren went home and got ready and went to meet Biber and Tammy in the city!!!
Tammy and i sung our way through the rest of that night on the way to Toni's. our little posse of three became a possee of six after finding louise, chris and cameron!...at louise's house :P
on went the epic journey to *lauren runs away from the computer to hug tosh hello and goodbye and runs back* toni's house...BEER was bought and presents were given :) hehehhe! omigod cam got me the most AWESOMEST bracelet. its a black band with silver letters and it's SO sexy! and it says 'Tiny Dancer' and i love it SOOOO much. thankyou so much hun!
hehehe 'Tiny Dancer + Big Bag of Angry'
so then, the little ecstacy laced weed pixies came and stole laurens memory away. but she DOES remember, Louise, Chris, Tom and herself lying on the ground swimming in the sky. "it's like remembering something you can't forget". that weird old stonner who cheered our stonnerness on! and...that's all...
so we spent the night at camerons...chris and i...chris gave cam and lauren their special time.lol. and we said a big goodnight to our beloved chrissie!
i think we did do something before we went to sleep but i don't remember much....wait....no we went and got food. but i hardly remember that. i just remember that petrol station was encouraging un protected sex. petrol station = no condoms.
oh. i remember me and cam eating chris's aero choccie. and taking random photos. well no i don't remember taking the photos i just assume i took them coz i have the photos on my digital camera.
i think we watched a movie...but i have NO idea what it was.
so i woke up next to cameron in the morning. the best way to wake up. it felt SO normal. hehehe. i love waking up next to you. hehehe. so a bit later. when we decided to actually get out of bed. we went and jumped on chris's bed and well he was already awake. but we still jumped on him. chris had milo. cam had milk. and we watched another movie. which i don't remember either. evil pixie's stole lauren's memory. and her underpants.
chris had to go a bit later. but i stayed. and spent midday/arvo with my lovely! we ate sandwiches. nyum nyum! and we watched bad boys. cam had a bit of a sleep. and it was so nice just to lie there with him!
eventually i had to go. at 3:30. coz i had to go to work. which was that much more enjoyable today! worked with steven. cooll guy. likes blink, mudvayne, system, boxcar, korn, slipknot, killswitch engage...the list goes on. but i forget...hehehe...point is. he likes good music. finally someone to have something in common with at work!.lol.
hmm so i had calamari and chips and salad for dinner...and that's my last two days really.
came home. for tosh for a total of 4 seconds! lol. litterally. but he's coming back to stay tonight on our couch!.lol.
have to work tomorro night 6 - 10....oh well....MUNIES....
wearing my sexy puppy slippers...YAY...hehehe.
i'm so tired, but my lovely cam just appeared and i'm SUPER happy. coz i love him SO much.
'let me know in 7 and a half years' awwww!!!! hehehehe...!!!
Lauren = loving cameron SO much | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| bordeness!! so i did all these quizzie thingies!! hehehe...what boredom will do to you...yay, only one exam left and it's art...going to ACE!!...hehehe i hope!! :)
Part Expert Kisser |
You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity
You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off
And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave
When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable | Part Passionate Kisser |
For you, kissing is about all about following your urges
If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story
You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses
A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble |
The Keys to Your Heart
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You are attracted to obedience and warmth. |
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. |
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. |
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
Your Love Style is Eros |
For you, love is all about the passion!
And chances are, you're currently in love.
You have a strong physical response to love...
And you are great at committing
(As long as the person makes your toes curl!) |
You are dreamy, peaceful, and young at heart.
Optimistic and caring, you tend to see the best in people.
You tend to be always smiling - and making others smile.
You are shy and intelligent... and a very hard worker.
You're also funny, but many people don't see your funny side.
Your subtle dry humor leaves your close friends in stitches. |
Your Seduction Style: The Natural |
You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen.
Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people.
You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find!
People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast. |
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| so i'm sitting here. wanting nothing more than to be in the same room with cameron, coz i know if i was, i wouldn't be sitting here updating this!...coffee...
so i was sleeping most of the day, after talking to my lovely on the phone into the early hours of the morning. hehehe. had dreams about you!!
deciding that i ain't never letting my baby go...best thing that's happened to me, you make me soo happy... and isn't he an awesome boyfriend!?
i was standing at work, saturday night...not the most appealing place to be. so it's around five o'clock. and it was busy, for some reason. so cameron stands in line...like he was going to buy a ticket or something, i was thinking, what's that boy doing. and he comes up to the counter with his hands behind his back...and i just thought that was the way he was standing, but to my suprise! he pulls out two pink tulips wrapped up in pretty clear plastic with a pink bow and says 'you got a present' and i was SO happy!!
i ran around the counter and gave him a big hug, and a big kiss!!! xx!!
but i couldn't talk for long...so then him and tom went to play pool and drink beers...but YAY they came back at 7 to watch unleashed and i gived them cheap tickets...!! and they brought nathan with then...a random that i don't know, his sister Jess goes to MLC and is in year 9, very pretty girl!
so anyhoo, randomly i went to say hi to cameron in the movie, gave him kissies :) i love you so much xoxo!!
then the day before, i came home, from cam's :) there was a bunch of flowers in my room from my daddy, so now my room's full of flowers and it smells and looks so pretty! however...there's passionfruit yoghurt on my wall...GRRR....
i'm so completely excited about the formals that are coming up!!! the Willoughby formal...gees i hope i spelt that right...to which me and cam have been invited to...and i'm going as a sexy punk/gangsta/mafia...not really sure!! with louise!! going to look so hot!!! the MLC 'social' to which louise and antonia and everyone! better be coming too...but im not sure if my lovely can come, because of the HSC and the stoopid organisation of my school!!! waaa!! i don't wanna go if i can't take my baby!!! and then FINALLY!! the formal of ALL formals.
The newington year 12 formal, Louise is going to be there to keep me girlie company!!!
She's going with her lovely tom, and im going with my lovely cameron!
We are both going to look SUPER SEXY!! wearing black and what have you!!!
formals = MAJOR SHOPPING!!
which i'm not complaining about AT ALL!
exam's are GAY! but almost over...much rejoicing!! | | comments: 12 comments or Leave a comment |
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I Miss You by Blink 182 |
"The unsuspecting victim
Of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me"
You grew up a lot in 2004. And it was mostly a very good thing.
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| could i be any more retarted?
i've got glandular fever, the flu and i have a black eye, courtecy of tom!...hehehehe, nah i don't really care...not your fault either :) hehehe.
i've been to the doctor so many times in the past few weeks, and i went and got my brain zapped yesterday, got an X-Ray by this seedy old man, which cameron insisted he was making me 'assume the position' yuk!
...anyhoo...then i was talking
about it with dane, who i had asked the day before if i could get a brain tumor from the X-Ray, which was probably a dumb question, but he's like no...X-Ray's are harmless if you only get a few, then after the X-Ray he's like...did you get a bit light headed and dizzy, and i'm like yeah actually, i started walking away and my head felt all weird and i started to get a headache and he goes....fuck lauren, that's the beggining of a tumor, and scared the absolute shit out of me!!!....sometimes i wish i wasn't so gullible...hehehe oh well.
so now i'm sitting here waiting to go to the optometrist...the doctorwho laughs at me everytime i go to see him said that was probably the best thing to do to basically make sure i wasn't blind...i was just sitting there thinking, yes well, something tells me i would have noticed if i had gone blind already or not...
upside to going blind, i get to hit people with my blind stick, or get an evil dog that eats babies or something...there's an upside to everything!
so, matt, the wonderful matt has introduced me to killswitch engage, which i love him for! and your going to come visit me very, very soon!!
hehehe, hurry up and get your P's...well you would of had them sooner if it wasn't for evil Mrs Sawczak...or however her name wants to be spelt!!!
i've been in writting moods laitley...i was sitting at school on monday and i can't remember which class it was, but i read it on something or someone said object of destruction...and immediately i was like, that would be the awesome name for a poem or a song, or something...mayb i should get someone talented to write it lol...ah well..
exam's soon...blaa...i'm so fucked on.
*detiation to tammy* my poor little tam tam has been sick, i love you very, very muchly!!! i hope your feeling better sweetie...!!!
*detication to vanessa* "HAPPY BIRTHDAY VANESSA"
i'm having a bit of a random day, ah well...not feeling well either, i'm sick at home....hehehe.
i miss my cameron, i havn't seen you since...well actually i saw you yesterday afternoon, but not properly, hehehe, your a darl, you visited me at work... and before that i saw you not too long ago lol, well i still miss you. wow, i love you so much. it's insaine. completely insaine!....never stop loving you....!!! xoxoxo!!!
ooo waxed my eyebrows today, they look so pwetty...rach honey, looked at your livejournal, wow i love you so much too. your like the best friend a girl could have. i do love you. so much! you mean the world to me sweetie! bestest friend :) and how pretty are those photo's of you...:)
by the way, this weekend, we are so doing something :) lots of hugs for you...
aww i love all my friends, and my awesome, sexy boyfriend!!! hehehe. i love you all-ness!!! xoxo! | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | eat you alive - limp bizkit | | Subject: | i love cameron | | Time: | 07:35 pm | | Current Mood: | in love |
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| wow...these last couple of weeks havn't been the best...talking cameron
wise. and everything else wise...ok, you have glandular fever
lauren...GEE THANKS!
and all the doctor said was, oh well, have to get it sometime...i was
like NO, NO YOU DON'T....is that what you say to cancer patients?...
ah well...point is! me and cameron have been thro rough times, but all
is good now. better than good. AMAZING. spent the past two afternoons
with my baby, and even tho we weren't doing the most exciting
things...and sometimes....we were talking about unhappy things...it was
still awesome to be able to just be with MY cameron....hehehe i love
the sound of that....'my cameron' it's all the more special knowing i
have you...
...random thought...i need to get my camera developed to get all the
awesome china photos i took with tammy, and louise i took my spoon
photo!!! hehehhe...
got pretty photo's with cameron too ehehhe...
i am eating milo out of a tin right now...yummm milo...this house has
like NOTHING IN IT...well that's a lie. im just too lazy to cook...and
i need to do history work...hmmm...
me and cam looked at PWETTY dresses this arvo for our formals...well my
social and cam's formal...and we found this HOT HOT dress, semi gothic,
black and well i thought PERFECT....but it was a bit too long...hehe im
so short...and it was A BIT too expensive...$2100!!!....then reduced to
$1680...but still OMFG so much munies!!!
i was like all upset and like waa coz i really loved it...but my smart,
sexy mr man, as always made it better...told me we'd definately find a
similar, better, CHEAPER one. so i got all happy...hehehe...then a very
aquard moment happened, which cam insisted was super cute....waa!! lol
ehehehe, i love you cameron, with all my heart..."fine, we'll have angels"
lots of kisses and hugs for my cameron! xoxox!!!
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| | Current Music: | like a stone - audioslave | | Time: | 04:46 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/sad.gif) sore |
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| sing for me,
let the melodies flow.
bleed for me,
life is too short to live aswell.
in the midst of it all,
i see no truth.
have what to show?
for all i fought for.
seems way to mainstream, to easy to pick.
i don't know you anymore.
give me something new,
something great to live for.
a purpose filled with meaning.
rejouvenate my life,
and set me free.
hmm?? i was bored just a little bit of random writting. i have way to much of that random writting/poem things around...hmm??
i had to go to the doctor's today. and i had to get a blood test! argh
it was so bad. and i have no idea why i was freaking out so much,
i was sitting there. the nurse is cleaning my arm for the needle. i
just go, "OH FUCK" and im sitting there breathing so fast, freaking
out...?? it was REALLY weird. i mean i get nerveous before needles. but
not normally like that!!!...so in the end it didn't end up being that
bad. it hurts now tho...ah well. so this doctor said i either have
glandular fever or tonsilitus.
WOW they both sound SO appealing.
when she first said what she thought i might have, i thought she said AIDS and i was like WHAT???...she just laughed at me! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| sitting at home, yet again...i've done nothing this weekend. i've been SO sick.
so i finally went to the doctor, not by myself! this morning. his name was Dr Q. Cameron, and i was like, yay! that was probably the highlight of my day, that and tammy checking on me, and making sure i was alright :) :) it's nice to feel loved!
she sent me the sweetest message!!! i loooove you tammy!! i love jaydeth too! she made me feel happier :)
i'm feeling a little better right now though. i still have a headache...:( it won't go away. and hasn't gone away for so many days now :(...finally something i've taken today has kicked in which is making my headache a little more bearable. omg i'm so drugged up. two antibiotic tablets, 2 disprins, a sleeping pill and some other headache thing. and this weird icky stuff i spray in my nose. it's sea water...it's weird. i've got the sea in my nose :S
and now tomorrow i'm prolly gonna have to go to Goulborn, or something. for some car thing with parents and tosh!!! ( thanks for your jacket on friday, vewy vewy warm :) ) but i don't wanna go...i just wanna see my cameron :( who i didn't get to see coz of my sickness... :( :( :(
you see rachel! i swear i have glandula fever! the doctor told me my glands were 'up' whatever that means...well it actually doesn't mean i have glandula fever, but you know how much i go on about it lol!!!
i just wanna say i'm sowwee to anyone i've been moody to. this sickness crap made me really crabby. but i love you all!! ever so much!!!
*kisses for everybody*, especially my cameron...i dunno what i'd do without you.
xoxox!!! | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | personal jesus - marilyn manson | | Time: | 11:03 pm | | Current Mood: | cheerful |
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| all these LOVELY people who used undiewear in a sentence!!!
"i'll burn your undiewear on a stake along with your head in a minute, don't black mail me" the lovely cameron
"then the girl cried out "its not my fault im wearing purple saggy undiewear"" the every delightful laura
"its not a party until you've seen louise's g-string undiewear" the china tom
"did you know today i put my underwear on inside out and didnt even notice" the amazing fernanda
"well the other day i was catching a bus and all of a sudden this man in undiewear comes up and sais hi" the awesomeness james
"I WEAR UNDIEWEAR ON MY HEAD LIKE A MAN WHORE!" the sexy porn star in training camilla
"at chris' party in the holidays I admired Laurens cute undiewear!" the super hot super awesome louise
AND the first ever undiewear sentence!!! "i need to pull my undiewear out from the inside of my ass because my boyfriend and i got excited and forgot to undress" | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
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indescribable
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